Better out than in

ok.. so not really.. but kick ass title don't you think? So I am now on my third draft of this blog.  Initially I wrote out all the things that have happened in the last few days and MAN did it sound SOOOO depressing.  I certainly don't want to sound sad..  I'm not.  So let me change up the slant of this a bit Sometimes bad things happen, things we can't control. People you love move, things break, pets become ill, people let you down, relatives pass away, and sometimes you come under attack for just being yourself, but that's life. You can't control the curve balls that life throws, but here are some things you can control: YOUR ATTITUDE - This is your choice, yours alone.  People can be total turd munchkins, but don't let them steal your joy.  Hold on to happiness.  My beloved Aunt Pat recently passed away and I can honestly say she leaves a void in my heart, she helped form me into the person I am and for that I am forever grateful. Her passin...

Questions that I've had to answer an oddly high number of times this week.. so here are all my answers... Yes they are all mine No I'm not cold I'm not hurt I just walk like this sometimes I don't know where your shoes are You have to do your homework first No one named Stephanie Lemmins does now or has ever lived here ....................................... other random thoughts... I'm proud of my kids for trying new things even when they don't succeed You can only put so much stock in other people I love having friends I can depend on I'm already kinda over the whole gil scout cookie thing The band sent me a bill We are going to buy a new car hopefully soon. I offend way too easily Starbucks and lovely friends is a good way to start my day The Trails is yummy I like my house, it's cute, but I am looking forward to moving out of housing One of my dearest friends is about to have a baby, I'm over the moon excited An...

I've recently come to terms with something... Something that I've been called since I was little... Something that I resented, and totally believed I wasn't... Turns out.. In FACT I am totally a goody goody! I know I know.. I've tried not to be... I want to be a rebel the "bad girl" but the fact remains... I don't think I have a rebellious bone in my body. After reflecting on past events in my life... Even when I TRY to be ... I can't.. FACTS I like following the rules I can't bring myself to park in the red zone I married the second guy I ever kissed I once got snarky with a cop who pulled me over... I wrote him a 2 page apology and took it to the police station. If I've ever lied to you, I probably immediately told you.. I clean up after people I don't know in public places I didn't drink a drop of alcohol until I was over 21 On my 21st birthday I had a milkshake I got rear ended and told th...

My brother will be 40 on Monday He's older than me, MUCH older Seriously WAY older Paige might be the nicest person I know.. no lie I have learned this week when you think a door is open, don't slam the one you're at until your SURE that next door is going to stay open.. just saying. Looks like I'm going to have some extra time on my hands.. oh what will I do One of my closest friends is moving, and I haven't figured out how to deal with it yet. I've decided sobbing uncontrollably on her porch is not the way to go.. (it's most likely what I'll do though) I want to go to Disneyland My grandma's house sold.. not sure why , but it made me cry. I am the heaviest I've ever been in my life.. this is bad.. very bad.. I love my Kindle Fire.  Best present ever! I should have mentioned BEST PRESENT EVER  when I posted the ugly red shirt that my husband also bought... So he is credited for my best and worse Christmas presents :) Tann...

I am never sure what to say when someone asks me where I'm from... My general answer is "well I was born in Michigan,  we moved to Arizona when I was a kid, but now we live in San Diego"... I used to say that  I'm from Arizona (Show Low to be exact), that's where I graduated high school and it's still where I keep lots of my favorite people.However most of my extended family all still live in Michigan... When Daniel and I first got married we moved to Hawaii two weeks later.  I hated it at first but grew to love it. However when it was time to go it was time to go.  When Daniel asked me where I wanted to live I said "I don't care I just NEVER want to live in Norfolk or California".  I said it, it's true..  I never wanted to go either of those places.  I had heard horrible things about Norfolk, and was pretty sure I'd be swallowed whole in California by a giant earthquake. As fate would have it we moved from Hawaii to Norfolk, VA (which...

So on the way to school this morning a "join the military change the world"  type commercial came on the radio... Now as you may all guess, I am a fairly big supporter of the military, so no disrespect is meant by this at all. The commercial had a man (presumably solider) talking about joining the military.  I was totally with him until he said "one day I was in uniform getting gas, and a woman who was a total stranger came up and hugged me... that's what it's all about" ummmmmmm THAT'S what it's all about?? Random hugs?? Not defending freedom, being part of the glue that binds this country, protecting the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of  happiness? Nope.. being in the military is all about getting hugs from random chics at gas stations... I know that's why Daniel joined...

I have a bunch of random things flowing through my brain.. as per normal, so here is one of them. I had an epiphany the other day at 2 a.m. while standing in a public restroom. (odd place I know.) I was staring into a mirror watching much younger women scurry in and out and I really saw myself.  Not a cursory glance to see if my hair was sticking up or if there was broccoli in my teeth, I mean a deep looked into my soul moment. I always seem to be waiting on something. When X is over I'll have more time.. or if I just quit doing Y this will be better.  Once the kids are a little older, once summer comes, once summer is over, and it hit me!!  I have been waiting for the wrong things.  I THOUGHT I was waiting for things that haven't happened yet.. but in actuality I don't think I was.  I was really waiting for life to regress. I was waiting to suddenly wake up and be 24 again and weigh 120lbs and have more energy and less wrinkles, have a more positive outlo...