Lets roll the dial back 20 years. I was awkward, scrawny, and not the most popular chic in our booming metropolis of Show Low. I know, I know, hard to believe but true. I also know its been 20 years, Lord knows I've changed, and it was a safe bet everyone else had too. Still there was trepidation and a whole lot of "what ifs". I tried to keep in mind that in the past year I really got to know one of the guys who quite honestly I thought was kindof a douche, and he and his amazing girlfriend have become as close as family to us.
Now I did highly doubt that anyone was going to call me "Amy LouFart" or pull my chair out from under me... But still... Some negative memories flooded back, and for a moment I was that sad kid who just wanted to fit in.
As it turns out the day before we left I got horrible sick, my van started to act weird, I was freaking out about leaving 2 of my boys behind, I told my husband it was an omen, he didn't concur, so away we went.
We rolled into Show Low Friday around 4, by now hubby was in full swing of my previous days illness. That night we were to meet at the old high school music room for a choir/drama ish reunion.. My safety net ( aka my brother and my bestie) were not going to be able to make it for that... hubby curled into a ball, so I kinda was leaning towards not going... But I went. I'm so glad I did! It was so fun being back in the old school, on the old stage and catching up with/ getting to know people I've known my whole life. It was so fun. Nerves calmed... Ready for Saturday.
We had a big multi class picnic to kick it off, which we need to do every year! So fun to see everyone and old teachers... Or maybe I should say FORMER teachers. Went to Dairy Queen with Dixie, which I've done a thousand times, but this time we were with our families.. Surreal!
The evening itself was awesome, turns out the same people who used to pick on me, are some of the coolest, funniest people on the planet. I know there are people who came that I never got to talk to, I wish I had more time. I did get to see/ chat with my first ever crush! 3rd grade baby! He walked in and I said " hi my first ever crush" followed by a long awkward silence.... Yep I still got it! Woot woot!!
I got to reconnect with people who I didn't realize how much I missed! I'll never let that many years go by again.
I think we should have another one, everyone's invited out to my place... I'll bake cookies. :)
I'm looking forward to many years of new/old friendships.
The night proved 3 things to me
1. The past is the past.
2. Don't let your own skewed perceptions make you miss out on something/someone potentially wonderful.
3. I really am funnier than Brett Noble